And he called the people to him and said to them, “Hear and understand: it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles a person, but what comes out of the mouth; this defiles a person.” - Matthew 15: 10-11
Words are not for manipulation, exaggeration, sarcasm, criticism, humiliation, or deception; rather, words are for respect, edification, adoration, truth, teaching, and learning. It hurts. I cannot lie and say that it doesn’t hurt. It hurts. I feel betrayal, I feel anger, I feel hatred. My heart is filled with disgust… But who am i to say all this? WHO am i to say that you’re unforgivable? I know —I’m 700% sure— that I’ve hurt many people in the past, present, and i probably will again in the future, with my words. I am.. exactly the same. That is why, even though you’re hurting me so much right now, I am happy that I am able to learn from this. I am happy that He will teach me something valuable from this.
I want to forgive but my heart is filled with unforgiveness. I want to understand but my heart is filled with bitterness. But I know that He will heal my heart. I know that He will purify my heart. I know that all this anger in my heart.. will turn into love. I am hopeful. I am hopeful that He will change my heart. Forgiveness does not mean forget, nor does it mean I will stop hurting. I won’t forget. I will remember His grace. I will remember His sacrifice.
Lord, Help me.
Help me to be more like you.
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choinhee said:
so beautiful. I’m struggling with this too, both as the person who hurts and the person who is hurt. <3 you
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